Daily Ramblings

So I've come to terms with the fact that I am still in an "in-between" stage in my life. I am trying with all my might to try and enjoy it, this is the time that I have to enjoy my fiance, our life together with just a turtle and a kitten, coming and going as we please. Then the wedding, can't wait, then the honeymoon cruise, absolutely can't wait. And not far away is kids and I will lose sleep and we won't be able to come and go as we please. So maybe I should just think about how lucky I am to be able to plan my future. I have to stop wanting and coveting things I need to just live my life more in the moment and focus on the wonderful things in my life that I have that some don't have. So for now...I am going to learn to be happy with what I have and learn to live with that, because as soon as I have the house and the mortgage and kids I'll wish I had time to relax. I know I will look back and think "I should have enjoyed that "in-between" stage a lot more" so I am going to enjoy life!

Graduated...now what

After graduating from college and entering the workforce I feel as though I have nothing to look forward to. For 14 years I have always gotten ready for the school year, prepared for winter vacation, then was always ready for summer...and it started all over again the next year. Now that I have graduated and got a job I feel as though I work, go home, work, go home. I feel like there is something missing, I do want to go back to school part-time (while keeping my job) and get my bachelors degree, but I don't know what major to get it in. I am engaged and my fiance and I are getting married on June 26, 2010 but that is so far away that I can't really start any prep work on it so I am in an "in between" stage as I like to call it. I never thought that I would like to go to work and go home on a daily basis but it is normal and it is becoming familiar which I like. It is stable and that is something I've never felt I had, stability, so now that I do am I wishing things were more spontaneous?? Hold that thought....I need to think about that!