Another Dinner At My House!

Tonight we are having Kielbasa and SourKraut!! You can add potatoes and that tastes awesome but we started a diet so we aren’t having potatoes with ours!

Fry the Kielbasa and SourKraut and serve!! That easy, if you make potatoes with them then cut and peel (or leave the skin I’m versatile!) and fry first then add the kielbasa and sourkraut!

I know I astound you with my talent as a chef! I promise I am self-taught, I know you’re jealous! HAH!

So...tired

I wasn’t going to post today…but I thought that I would update to let everyone know how my workout went this morning!! Woke up at 4:10 got to the gym at 5:10 worked out till 6:15, almost killed myself on a chin up thingy machine (yes that is the technical term) and came home to shower and go to work…I left work early so I didn’t have to deal with traffic tonight, thank God! I’m so effing sore I think I might just sit here all night and not move…I don’t know M. might not like that since thats pretty much what I did last night! HAHA!
Tomorrow is Thursday…one day away from Friday! HOLLA!

Did you know that...

I have been up since 4:25 a.m. of my own volition! Yes, that is me the glutton for punishment! Since I moved to New York I have steadily gained weight with my venture into birth control and horrible back problems that have yet to be resolved! I have gained so much weight that I don’t recognize myself in the mirror any longer, I dieted for a good 6 months and lost maybe 6 pounds…and gave up. So I am back at it again thanks to a couple of friends that are amazingly inspirational and I am glad they are helping me!
So in order for all of us to go to the gym in the morning and make it back before our significant others wake up or go to work we leave at 4:45 to get to the gym around 5:00-5:10 they go tanning (I will once I lose weight) then we work out for an hour to about 6:15-6:20. I get home by 6:45 in enough time for a quick shower, wake up M., and leave my house by 7:30 to make it to work on time! I thought I would be more tired this morning but I wasn’t, it has just now hit me that I am lagging a little this afternoon. My co-worker walked past me while I was making copies and said something funny (or supposed to be, I’m not sure) and I giggled smiled and said “yea.” Hell if I know I could have just sold my first born to him for $1 but I couldn’t register what he had said to me! Oh well I love the energy I get from going to the gym…so this week will be rough (three days a week at 4:20 am) but I will get into a routine and make myself follow a strict regimen so I can become the person I’ve been missing for awhile!
Happy Tuesday…almost Wednesday not close enough to Friday!

Weekend wrap-up

Friday: As I posted before was the surprise that was taken back! It was roses spread out on our bed in the shape of a heart. To some it may be cliche but for me it was so beautiful and loving because he didn’t have to! We went to dinner at Applebees where I didn’t order soda (1 for me 0 for my waistline). Then we went to blockbuster to return our movies from last week (Marley and Me, Something Christina, Barcelona and two of his movies) Don’t let your children watch Marley and Me, M. and I couldn’t keep ourselves together for most of the day we watched it. Back to my Friday. We picked up a movie for him (W., I didn’t want to see it but hey it’s his pick) and then Changeling for me!
Saturday: M. had to work from 8-12 (”No later then 12 babe, I promise!”) I put on my movie and stopped and started it as I saw fit to clean our apartment. Then 12:15 rolls around, still no M., I sign on to Facebook and talk about the joy of being a mechanics wife to M.’s bosses wife! Then Mel graced me with his presence around 12:45 he showered and we went to do laundary, pay some bills, and do a little shopping.
Sunday: I woke up in a rare mood, I miss my family terribly and when I get into a funk I apologize to anyone in a 10-mile radius that has the unfortunate fate of coming into contact with me. M. and I started our diet, officially, we had bagels for breakfast and no carbs the rest of the day. He worked on his car at the shop and I watched another movie that he wouldn’t otherwise watch with me. I met up with him at the shop:
“10 minutes and I’ll be done for the day and we can go to the store.”
1-hour later we were in our grocery store picking up last minute things for the week. M.’s brother came down from the city so we hung out with him for a few minutes and grabbed a late lunch (salads with grilled chicken). We were then so full that we didn’t eat dinner later, M. cleaned his car and mine (love him!) and I sat on the porch with a great book, Jodi Picoult Harvesting the Heart, with hot tea and let our kitten Chevy run around on the enclosed porch!! We came in and didn’t put the laundary away or clean our turtles tank and went to bed early! We are rebels but we had a great weekend, I hope everyone elses went well too!!

DAMn it all to HELL!

I got a call from M. my lover my fiance as soon as I sat down at my desk this morning. Went a little something like this:
“Hello….you there”
“Yes, I’m here, what are you doing? Everything alright?”
“Yes, everything’s fine but I wanted to tell you to not come home early I have a suprise for you that I have to set up at lunch and I know you don’t feel good but you can’t come home early!!”
“What is it?”
“It’s not a suprise if I…”
“But you could just tell me because it’s 9 am and I don’t get home until 6:30 pm!”
“No I can’t, we’re really busy here today gotta go”
“Love you”
“Love you too, bye”
So I spent the first half of my day wondering and thinking and scheming on how I could sneak home early. I couldn’t wait to talk to him at lunchtime (we talk everyday at lunch…keeps us up-to-the minute with everything that changes in our world so quickly). So he calls at noon and it goes like this:
“Well, you can come home early now if you want”
“It’s all set up?????!!!!”
“No, the place didn’t have what I wanted to get you until tomorrow, so it’ll have to wait.”
“WHAT….you tell me theres a surprise for me then you rip it back like a bully stealing my candy!!”
“Yea, sorry…it’s not like your not going to get the surprise I just don’t think it’ll be today”
“Well then you have to tell me what store your getting it at or what it is, you are FREAKING killing me”
“Gotta lock-up and get lunch at home…talk later Love you”
“Yah Love you too”
Needless to say I still can’t leave early because I have to save my time offfor my sisters wedding in August…my throat is sore…my head is throbbing…and thank you for listening another Gold Star is awarded to you!

Because it's just so fun!

One of the things I hate MOST about my commute, besides the idiots on the road and the terrible pains I get in my ass from sitting so long, is the look and questions I get when people ask me where I work. Usually it’s
“Are you crazy, I could never do that…” (Thats nice for you, but I have to support my habit of wanting to have a home and food to eat, I really need to go to a meeting about that!)
“WOW do you know how far that is?” (No I don’t I just blindly drive with my thumb in my whoohaa and have no idea what time I leave in the morning and when I get to work)
And then theirs the blank stare followed by a face of pity to which I like to respond (someone has to do it, and I am the one to do it, I call myself superwomen!haha)
Assclowns are born every minute just to toy with me while driving! But rest assured that you all will be the first to read about it when it happens!

A day in my life...real time edition...

I am sitting here at work with my head in my hands wondering how I got to where I am at this very moment. The system we use in my company has been thoroughly changed to appease Audit, which means that 50% of my job I can’t do and have to wait to see if they will change it back or if I will have to give that duty to someone else…which means a lot more work for me! YAY! It is Spring Break for the kiddies in the world (or at least by me) and two of them are in a vacant office behind me playing video games together! Fine…peaceful…until…
“NO NOT MY SHIP…YOU WILL NOT TAKE ME ALIVE…”
“Wait let me hear (talking about the headphones to the game) I wanna hear you kill them”
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…..PLEASE NOOOOOOO”
Ok so I am going to try and get my work done now…in-between the shrieking and the lovely sounds of children 10 and under chewing with their mouth open! Hey I’m not a parent yet, and I know that you can’t watch your kids all the time…but if you bring them to the office try and “HUSH” them a little!! I know I will probably be ridiculed for that but hey…this is my life real time!

Ass Clowns in the Fast Lane!

Ok so today started out like any normal day…I woke up with every intention of exercising, but I’m still not feeling good so I slept in. Went to work, worked etc. Then my boss calls Accounting (my department) into a meeting at 10 to 5! Then we get out about 5:05 which is fine I don’t mind staying a little later, but I HATE THE TRAFFIC!! Really I didn’t sit still in traffic the whole way home so in New York terms I had a GREAT commute. But I got hit with Ass clowns in the fast lane left and friggin right!
I would pass one that was doing 5 under the speed limit in the fast lane mind you, just to get right behind another one. Then to top it all off there was ONE huge Ass clown that was causing all of the other drivers to have to go slow behind her which in turn makes everyone slam on their breaks and almost rear-end everyone! I passed her, shes lucky I didn’t give her the bird! Anyway so that was my day today…not too bad…I’m writing from home becasue I had to talk about the Ass clowns! Tomorrow then!

Explaining my OCD moment...

M. and I woke up early, again, on Sunday morning, although this time it was my fault. I posted on Saturday morning outlining a little bit of our day that I thought was a PLAN! I should admit now that I usually have a plan all mapped out and explained to M. and then he will up and want to do something OFF MY PLAN and be all reckless and say “I didn’t know about that, you didn’t tell me!” Hah I know I told him! Anywho…back to the story so we were supposed to color eggs in the time slot after his haircut and before we went to go meet Al about our wedding. Needless to say he got home from work late (my fault I should have known) and we went to grab some lunch and then to get his haircut. By the time we got back to the apartment we didn’t have enough time to color the eggs!
I wasn’t anxious about it at that point, to veer(spelling) once from the Plan is ok. Then after we met with Al about our wedding (another post) we were supposed to come home and color eggs and then go to a movie and pick up a few things we needed in town. On the way back to the house M. says “Hey why don’t we go see Fast and Furious now” and I said, “I guess, but after that we have to color eggs as soon as we get home” M. replies “Ok, no problem, look up the times on your phone” (who said internet on your cellphone was a bad thing?)
We went to The Fast and Furious 4 which I have to admit I enjoyed, and then we ended up meeting a couple of friends we haven’t seen in a long long time and went out to dinner. I was starting to feel a sore throat and a cold coming on…so after dinner I wasn’t feeling up to grabbing the little stuff we needed, so we went home and I went to bed at like 10:30 or so. What I didn’t realize is that M. didn’t come to bed until like 1:30 am because he watched a movie he rented that I didn’t want to see. So when I rolled over at 7:30 am on Sunday and let our kitten in to wake us up…he was a little bit tired looking! Oh well…thats what he gets for waking me up early every day this past week!! It’s all Love in our world! Anyway…so that is a little explanation of my Planning, and I really am working on my OCD and planning nature! We eventually did get the eggs colored Sunday morning…and when I went to go enjoy the hard-boiled eggs I eat once a year…I hadn’t cooked it long enough…I was PISSED! Needless to say I will have to end up cooking a couple of eggs just so I can have my ONE hard-boiled egg! If you’ve managed to stay with me this long you deserve a Gold Star, I am not above handing out Gold Star’s randomly and I know you treasure them! hah!

A Day in the Life of...Glamour! haha

Ok so today M. and I woke up earlier then we normally do even on weekdays! He had to go to work, so I go tbusy cooking the eggs for us to color for our egg hunt tomorrow. I am still a little kid when it comes to Holiday traditions and everything involved. We have an appointment to secure our wedding venue and start talking about prices for our wedding at 4 today…I am hoping for great savings (please cross your fingers for us!)
After that M. is going to go back and work on his Camaro and then I believe we are going to a movie. I know my life is glamarous and you want to be able to do all of the crazy things I’m doing! Oh well…not much going on so not much to say! Happy Easter everyone!

Working and the Economy...

I hate to say this but up until the past couple of weeks I have not felt the strain of this horrible economy. As I look around and see people lierally falling in the storm that is the housing market and the tsunami of money troubles I have been blessed.
Right about the time that the economy started taking a nose dive into hell and gas prices were continuously soring, I landed a great job! I was once month away from graduating with my Associates degree and I started two weeks before graduation! Needless to say, I began getting a paycheck every two weeks! Up until that point my caring and wonderful fiance was taking care of himself and me in our first apartment until I graduated college. Once my paychecks started coming in we were able to pay off bills, and I was able to get a brand new car!!! We go out to eat every Friday, I do have to say that we both are coupon and sale freaks! We rarely by anything that isn’t at a discounted price, and I usually shout from the heavens about our good deals! Like recently when we switched grocery stores posted here!!
Anyway…the past couple of weeks have been very hard as lay-offs have been taking place in my company, and I have watched as hard-working people that need this job get cut and people who do not work hard and do absolutely nothing to help the survival of this company still have employment! It hurts and makes me sad…I am lucky enough to still have my job, and I work twice as hard everyday because of it, I will not let my co-workers loss be in vain I will work to restore the awesome company I work for! I have been dealt a huge piece of humble pie, so please excuse me as I eat it with a heavy heart…

Public Restrooms...

I am going to publicly announce my hatred of using public restrooms. Going the usual (number 1) is no big deal, you’re in you’re out no one notices anything out of the ordinary. But lordy lordy if fate is striking down on you with a blow that would be Number 2 then you must be publicly humiliated by going. Ok so maybe that is a stretch being humiliated but I definitely am everytime I have to go #2 in public!
I have a routine…I always go in the last stall, I have to hold it until every last person is out of the restroom EVEN if that means waiting ten minutes because of high traffic in the restroom. Hence why I try to only go #2 when it is not rush-hour for the bathroom! I’m sorry if this is TMI but I felt I needed to reach out about my phobia of going #2 in public! Thanks…I feel better now.

Mondays...

I really believe that Monday’s were meant as a day of torture. You wake up Monday morning and realize that you have 5 eight hour work days before you can be as relaxed as you were only a few hours ago. Then you must force yourself to make the decent from the warmth of your bed to the bathroom where you will undoubtedly become cold with the bitterness that is Monday!
I wish that I could have a 4 day work week with 10 hour days and have three blessed days to relax. Only having two days to relax seems a little bit like a tease to me.
Now I am done complaining, back at work today (obviously) I will hopefully post another killer dinner tomorrow…because we were gone all weekend I didn’t cook! I got to go to New York City and stay with my brother-in-law (well soon to be) and then we all went to Philadelphia for the zoo…and we ended up absolutley loving it! Then we went to a huge farmers market and bought fresh apple butter and corn bread! Oh and fudge, how could I forget? We also experienced the Philly Cheese Steak! It was yummy and you can really taste the difference from eating one at your normal everyday diner or restaurant to eating one in Philly!! YUMMY!! I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Birthday Dinner

So my first experience with Red Lobster was AMAZING…except for the prices! My loving fiance paid and I am so grateful that I did not leave this Earth without tasting Red Lobster’s biscuits! OMG sooo freakin good! I have to find the recipe sooner then later because I will most likely be feaning for these biscuits soon. My lover bought me a card and then drew in our kitten and turtle at the end, he is so cute!
Right now I am sitting at work…bored…I’m all caught up and because it’s the beginning of the month I have NOTHING to do. If you could imagine sitting through an entire lecture of your worst subject from a monotone professor and multiply that by 100 thats how freakin bored I am. I know I used the word “freakin” again but it adequately helps to describe how I’m feeling! Thank you…
I can’t wait to go home and sit and watch TV, and hopefully my books came. I definitely just sounded like a nerd back there. I am so in love with Jodi Picoult’s book that I read two in a week and a half, and I just ordered three more!! Amazon if your reading…please make sure my books get here ASAP…as I don’t know what to do with myself at night if I don’t have a book to hide in!
This weekend I am going to the city (New York City) and then on to Philadelphia, where I have never been. We are going to have an authentic Philly Cheese Steak and if all goes as planned we will be visiting the zoo!! I haven’t been to the zoo since I was in middle school so I can’t wait…I love animals and I’ve heard that the Philly zoo is one of the best in our area along with the Bronx Zoo. I will hopefully have plenty of pictures from the city to be able to share when I get back. But (yes I realize I shouldn’t start sentences with but, but I like to! hah) it is not even close to the weekend. It’s only Wednesday and I must get through two more days before I can even think about how much fun and exhausting this weekend will be!
So I had a great night last night at RL but I am sore today because of it…we usually don’t go out on weeknights so all of the excitement didn’t help me sleep last night and I am dragging today becasue of it. I would do it all over again though…ok I’m done rambling…for today!

Hot Dogs and Rice (Dinner at My House edition)

Ok so admittedly last night we had Hot Dogs and the goodness that is Cheesy Rice A Roni. It was a sophisticated meal eaten on paper plates in front of the television! While I was cooking dinner I was on the phone with my Grandma (dad’s side) and when she asked what I was making I said “Hot Dogs and Rice” and she said “WHAT!” This response is understandable for most people, but the man that I love LOVES Hot Dogs and Rice A Roni! And you know what I do to!! HAHA! Sorry I haven’t made anything decent to post…we are going to Red Lobster tonight for my birthday so maybe Wednesday night I’ll make something FABULOUS!!

A Letter to....my Childhood!

Dear Childhood,
It was fun while it lasted. I am now 21 years old, today, and I can no longer stay in the realm that is you. You protected me from having to grow up, and you know just how to keep me happy. BUT I must be moving on…
I know this will be hard but it must be like a band-aid and make a clean break! I will revel in the memories we have made together, but the part of my life called “Adulthood” is beckoning and I must go to the light that is maturity. I am sad and will never forget how we used to ride our bikes around the driveway, make fun of my sister, and play outside all day until the sun went down. How we were able to get dirty and not worry, because Mom and Dad would be there to clean us up. You have served me well, and I most certainly will dive into the immaturity that is childhood at some point in my next 21 years, so I will be seeing you if only for a fleeting moment. Thank you for all of the memories!
-Me

The Hell that is Wal-Mart

Ok…so admittedly I was once deeply in love with everything that is Wal-Mart. I loved the deals the crowds and mastering my way through the hour long check-out lines. I lived and breathed everything Wal-Mart…”Hey Courtney where did you buy (insert any random item)?” “WALMART!!!” This was my typical response.
Lately I have felt as though having to go to Wal-Mart is a death sentence and I do ANYTHING to get out of it…and I do mean anything! I began to dread the parking lot horror show, the battle with the crowds, and the old man accidentally grabbing my ass in the check-out line because he wouldn’t think of backing up in the line! Which meant I had to find a different supermarket to go to every month for groceries. I not only found an AWESOME place that I can always find a parking spot, always find a cart, and the crowd is NOTHING compared to Wal-Mart! (Hey I consider not having to flip someone off in Wal-Mart a great shopping day) I SAVED a TON of money!! I go grocery shopping once a month now and can get everything I need for a cheaper price, and because I do NOT want to go to Wal-Mart very often, I find that I don’t binge shop and over-spend on stupid things that I don’t need!! YAY ME! So all in all I wanted to share the good news, that I dont’ have to battle my demon named “Wal-Mart” any longer! The other grocery store is Price Chopper…but I don’t think it is a national grocer! SORRY!

Work and my Birthday...

So tomorrow is my 21st Birthday, I can't believe I am actually 21! M. is taking me out to dinner tomorrow but won't tell me where and he says he is going to blindfold me. Of course I keep asking for clues, but he won't give me anything substantial! Then this weekend we are taking a train to the City staying with my brother-in-law (soon to be) and then going to Philadelphia on Saturday...spending the whole day in Philly...then coming back to the City Saturday night. We might catch a movie Saturday night, we'll see...then back home on Sunday by way of the train! I love the train it's such a peaceful ride! I haven't been to Grand Central yet and that is where it will be taking us, YAY! Tomorrow night I can actually purcahse an alcoholic beverage in a restaurant! CRAZY!! I'll probably order one drink and then drink diet coke the rest of the night! I know I'm such a rebel!!
Work is work...as usual...it stinks that my birthday is the end of the month...otherwise I would have probably taken off! Oh well! More tomorrow!

Sick Day...

I took a sick day from work today...I'm beyond tired. M. is going to start working on his car this weekend. And so the cycle begins! He is updating his exhaust and headers that his wonderful wife (me) bought him for Christmas and his birthday. I only call myself his wife because this is how he refers to me! TGIF...more this weekend!

Construction and Road Rage...

As an occupant of New York that must use various roadways to go about my daily business, I am always surrounded by someone with road rage. And usually not just the "finger" but the tailgaiting and various other forms of rude behavior in a vehicle. When I first moved here I was deathly afraid to drive. I thought as soon as New York residents heard that someone from Fremont, Nebraska was driving on their roadways that they would systematically run me off the road. This did not happen, and I became accostomed to driving in this great state. I landed a job that is close to the city, 1 hour and 15 minute commute each way, that brought me to almost the heart of the traffic beast! I slowly learned to navigate and to speed like a true New Yorker....along with this New York driving knowledge came unbelievable road rage! Even M. (my fiance) gets upset at my road rage. I am terrible, and if you are in my way look out.

I now wonder when I go and visit home again will I be a New Yorker visiting, or will my driving become more relaxed and I will be a normal driver again?

And good old contsruction! UGH! They just finished a section of the highway that I frequent a couple of months ago, and while my commute was better, New York state decided it would be best to screw with my commute. So they started road work at the very exit I get on and off the highway! LOVELY! So now I have to go through town on back-roads so I dont' have to sit in traffic for 30 minutes and the road rage beast will not be unleashed! Please pray for my sanity as I drive daily!!

Dinner at My House (2)

Chicken, Homemade Fries, and Cheesy Bread:

The chicken that we used was already pre-cooked mesquite chicken that you can buy in a nice big bag at Wal-Mart! It is very yummy, and you just have to cook it in the oven.

Put vegetable oil in a pot and turn on the heat (medium to high) to make sure it is hot enough when you are done cutting the potatoes.

Wash off 5 or 6 potatoes, we used red russet. Cut the potatoes to your liking, we cut them in small squares like French Fries! LOL

I made the Pioneer Women's garlic cheese bread, http://thepioneerwoman.com/cooking/2009/03/garlic-cheese-bread/
That M. loves so very much now! I only modify the recipe a little bit, I don't add as much mayonnaise and if I don't have cheddar I use mozzarella, and if my fiance has eaten all of the fresh parmesan I use the pre-grated kind!

Start cooking the fries by putting batches into the oil until they are brown and crispy. Then you salt them as soon as they come out, so that salt sticks!!

Plate everything and wash it down with Ice Cold Tea!!! Yumm!!

Morning...

Not feeling so well today...I came to work anyway. I am trying to save my time off for my sisters wedding in August. It seems so far away! We made a great dinner last night...I will post it later on today.

We decided on the hoedown package for our wedding. I know it sounds fairly chincey (read: redneck) but with options for steaks and sangria and a margarita bar etc. I think it will be awesome! It's also a lot cheaper then a normal sit down dinner, and we will be able to do a little bit more casual dress at the reception which is perfect because I'm not a very fance person! My fiance had a hard time agreeing to the hoedown package because he thinks I want a big elegant wedding. It's sweet of him to want to give me the world, one of the many things I love about him, but I'm not a very "elegant" type of person...and I love me a hoedown!! HAHA! Happy Wednesday....hey at least it's closer to Friday!

Last night American Idol was not on TV...because the President was speaking...BOO! I hate not having my normal line up! And the basement apartment we live in has a cable line coming from the upstairs cable box so we don't have a cable box. Which means we don't have a guide and I don't have DVR to record, watch, and rewind! BOO again! I am going to nag, whoops, I mean talk to M. about getting a box downstairs for like $10 a month!!! We shall see! Sitting at work...I am amazed at all of the wonderful blogs that keep me entertained! Thank you to all of the amazing blogs in the blogoshpere! My personal favorites are, The Pioneer Women, NieNie, PistolsandPopcorn, Shamelessly Sassy, and Big Mama. They keep me occupied when I have nothing to do! ;)

Dinner At My House (1)

Steak and Rice:

Stir-Fry steak (I prefer the stir-fry meat because it comes already cut up)

A-1 Steak-sauce

Teriyaki

Garlic (salt or the real thing)

Rice (however much you can eat...I usually make 1 1/2 cups to 3 cups water.)

Start the rice. For every 1 cup of rice it is 2 cups of water! And DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT stir the rice...it will get all mushy if you stir it at anytime. Keep it on a high flame until it boils and then turn to low heat and cover with a lid.

Fry the stir-fry steak in butter and garlic(if you have real garlic) season meat with garlic salt, seasoned salt, and salt and pepper (whatever you like for seasonings). When the steak is almost done add the teriyaki sauce in to fry the rest of the way in. I like to make sure the steak is swimming a bit, and the meat will soak up the teriyaki so it's yummy! When all of the water seems to have evaporated into the rice, take a bite if the rice is done that turn the heat off. If it's not done add a LITTLE more water...but still without stirring!

When rice is finished, add stir-fry steak with some of the teriyaki juices (if there is any left) and add A-1, to taste, to the rice and meat mixture!! So yummy and it is a staple in our kitchen. It is also very very easy! ENJOY!

Blah Day...

So this about sums up my day. Work has been...blah and I honestly feel as though BLAH should be an emotion. You know when you're bored, tired, in between a lot of things, worrying about a lot of things...I think that would best describe being BLAH!!

I ordered flowers for my childhood pastors funeral today, sad. I can't believe he's gone, he was only 57. I drove to work thinking about what it would be like to lose my fiance, and after I started to feel myself turn to mush and almost start to cry.....I called him to make sure he knew that I love him. I hope that we both have a happy and healthy life together!

Here are the flowers, I hope they are ok. I couldn't find anything that didn't look girly to me...so this is what looked the least girly. I like it and I hope that their family can get through this knowing how many lives that he has touched, because he definitely has touched many!

I think they are lovely!

Well I hope everyone has a great day! Friday can't come fast enough!

***I'm going to start doing some posts about what I make for dinner each night, in an attempt to remember what my fiance likes to eat and doesn't like to eat***

Birthdays and Endings

March has been a tough month. My fiances bithday was March 7th and his Nannie passed away on the 4th, which was somewhat expected. But still deeply saddening. Then my birthday is the 31st (21st b-day) and my pastor from childhood past away yesterday morning, the 22nd. http://www.rrstar.com/communities/x110660868/Machesney-Park-pastor-accepted-everyone So while this month was meant for happy times sadness has been pouring in.

On a lighter note we pretty much finally pick the place where we will have our wedding!! Ceremony and Reception, and because most of my family will travel it is in a beautiful hotel that is luxurious and will discount rooms for our party!! We both fell in love with this place as we were walking in, and the icing on the cake is that they are willing to work on the price for us!! YAY!! In upstate New York the sentence "we will work with you on price" is almost non-existent!

That is a little bit of an update...

Daily Ramblings

So I've come to terms with the fact that I am still in an "in-between" stage in my life. I am trying with all my might to try and enjoy it, this is the time that I have to enjoy my fiance, our life together with just a turtle and a kitten, coming and going as we please. Then the wedding, can't wait, then the honeymoon cruise, absolutely can't wait. And not far away is kids and I will lose sleep and we won't be able to come and go as we please. So maybe I should just think about how lucky I am to be able to plan my future. I have to stop wanting and coveting things I need to just live my life more in the moment and focus on the wonderful things in my life that I have that some don't have. So for now...I am going to learn to be happy with what I have and learn to live with that, because as soon as I have the house and the mortgage and kids I'll wish I had time to relax. I know I will look back and think "I should have enjoyed that "in-between" stage a lot more" so I am going to enjoy life!